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Monday, February 25, 2008

Beginning of my Happiness

Finally, i have moved on. Some things that use to matter in the past arent that impt now.

U r the only one that i will treasure from now. Everything of u is so right. U always appear at the right time. U always seem to know when i think of u or sth bad happen to me. U seem to know me v well.

All along i have been holding back. I fear to admit that i like u as i thought u r not ready n that hope will end in disappointment. There is a point of time when i dun see ur presence n i started to doubt abt us.

Yet, u never give up. U keep assuring ur feeling towards me over n over again. U been trying to open my doors. U been telling me to say whatever i want. At this point of time, i finally willing to step up n sort things out with u. It take quite a lot of courage. I glad i did. After one year plus, things finally get to proceed further. Everything finally bcum clear.

Announcing a new beginning.

I know we have big differences. I know that there will be lot of obstacles. I hope that we r able to trust each other. I hope no matter what happen, nothing will stop us from gg forward.

I promise that i will speak whatever i have in mind.

I m really glad u enter my Life.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Departure

Yesterday.

At the moment of departure when we hugged each other, tears filled my eyes. I reflamed myself from crying, as i promised that i would not. N at that point of time, u said that i should not cry. U really knew me very well. All that i could say was take care. At the moment u stepped into the departure hall and disappeared from my sight. I could not hold back my tears anymore. Tears flowed down my cheek.

I really hoped that i was going with u. At least u had a company. At least u did no need to face a aleinated environment alone. How i wished that my circumstances was different. Deep inside, i knew that u would be able to do it. I believed. I m really glad that we were in the same class. I m glad that we were in the same PW group. As i got to know a close friend whom i really treasure.

I knew that u had left a letter for me. I did not dare to look at it till i was on the bus on the journey back home. I read it. I was very touched. At the very last minute when u were leaving, u were still nagging at me n so worried about me. All i had in mind: GOD. Please watch over her. Please ensure that she is safe. Please take good care of her.

I would be more rational. I would be more decisive. I will. I shant let anybody to worry abt me. Tigger will be able to take good care of herself.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Distant/Changes

Jace is flying off today. The next time i shall see her will be in Dec, 10 months to go. Haix. It seem quite long. I m surely gonna miss her. She is one of my closest friend whom i hang out quite often n whom i alwaz talk to when i need a listening hear. I love the days we just hang out at her house n doing nothing much. Yet departure cannot be avoided, we each need to go our seperate path one day too. I just hoped that we will remain in contact.

I fear distant. I fear changes. People will change. Distant keep people apart. When 2 pple whom haven been keep in contact for long and meet up again, a feeling of aleination seem unavoidable.

Maybe i m thinking too much. Hahax. Sigh...What a ME......

Priority

I realised that it was very important for me to get my priority right now.

Ranking:

1. Study

2. Work

3. Family

4. Friends

5. Entertainment/Leisure

I got to stayed focus from now on. I got to spent less time n money on entertainment. I must not be distracted by any other external factors. I have no time. Work n study would have kept me very occupied. I must endured. If anyone can handled and coped well, same go for me too.

Some things are hard to stop thinking. Some things are hard to let go. However i would not hold on too. One day, all the things that use to matter alot will no longer be important. I shant ponder, letting time to pass n nature to take its course. It will so much easier if i m not who i m.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Love^

"Is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, & finding out that you love someone right after that person has walked out of your life. Sometimes you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them, just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, letting go is one way of expressing how much they love a person, but for others it's holding on to that special feeling as long as possible before it fades away. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, love is always present, it's just that one was being loved too much &the other wasn't being loved enough. We all know that the heart is the center of the body, but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just a pass time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here's a piece of advice: Let go when you are hurting too much. Give up when you or the other believes love isn't enough, & move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will honestly love you, & only then will you know true love. "

Monday, February 04, 2008

Eventful Week

Hahax. A great week. Busy. So tired now. Zzzz.
Btw, my phone is dying. Oh My Tian lax. Haiz......

Sun: Attended Li Chan's Wedding at Sentosa
Li Chan looked so gorgeous
Took lots of photos

The dinner was very filling

Mon: Took a day off n go Jace's hse
Grilled meat n asparagus
Eat for 2 whole hours
Serve net
Went to her room n looked at the clothes that she was planning to bring with her
Went to watch 27 dresses at Yishun
Awesome

Thurs: S24 Class Girls' Gathering
13 pple in total
Sad Jojo n Pamme not able to turn up
Had Billy Bomber instead of Vilage coz closed for a few days
Big Serving
So full
I ate so much
Ice-cream
Oh my Sinful

Sat: Went Causeway Point with Jace to do her shopping trip at evening
This was the first time ever she bought so much thing
We had Pastamania for dinner cum supper
Today was Melissa's B'dae party but i din go coz no one to acc me. Shall make it up

Sun: Met cousin Janet for Breakfast at CrystalJade
Also happened to see Xin Yi while waiting. LOlx.
She gave me lots of bags n clothes but few that i like n i would use
Not bad
Sad that could not meet Xiao Ting coz she got forget she was supposed to go Sentosa
NvmThere would be next time soon