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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

School = Sianzation

Yest was my 2nd lesson at PSB academy. In the beginning, i was very unwilling to go for class. I changed my mind after i caculated that it was ard $15 for one hour of lesson. Oh My Tian la. Haiz. In the end, i convinced myself to go for class.

Only half n hour had passed, i kept my eyes glued to the clock in the hope that it would be 10 soon. Haiz. Why was time passing so slowly? Worst. My teacher, Edmund, took forever to go through one chapter. The pace of the lesson was very slow for something that was so basic like secondary school topics.

Here are the details of my first 2 class. Algebra, Factorisation, Radicals, Exponent, Fraction. Total 7 hours. He had not finished yet. Oh Mi Gosh. YAWN!!! He was not done with the first chapter leaving with one or two more section to go, sth like Linear Equation etc. Zzzzz.

I wonder how i m gg to survive the classes ahead. Yawn.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

My Happiness

One month has passed. As time pass by, i also start to stable. I did not think that much anymore.

At one point of time, i m still holding back n wondering if i shld get out of my barrier as i fear the consequences for falling too deep. I told one of my friend n she adviced that some people regretted after the breakup that they did not love enough n that i shld love with all my heart coz at the same time i m being unfair to him.

Ya. I allowed myself to sink deeper. I really hoped that i can trust, have faith in n rely on him.

As i m tasting the sweetness, i m fearing that all will become bubbles n suddenly vanished into thin air. Hahax. I m just fearing that all is just a dream.

Now, i will just experience everything fully. I will take whatever that come by. Hoping that this happiness will last.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

School Starting

This morn, i recieved an email from PSB academy. Oh My. I would be having orientation on 22nd March which is a sat from 12 to 12.30. Straight after that i would be having my first lecture from 1 to 5. I totally couldnt believe it. So fast. Fine. Every week i would have lesson 3 times a week. Either Tue, Thurs n Sat or Tue, Fri n Sat. Oh My. I hated that my whole sat was taken away with lesson from 9 to 12 n 1 to 5, leaving me with spare time at night only. Sigh...All the best to myself. Giving myself a tap at the back.

Btw, I figure out i really shldnt think that much abt what i blog yest. There isnt a need for me to find any ans. Ya. I m gg to let nature to take its course. I shld just go with the flow. Hoping everything go well.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Realise

Suddenly i realised that it is very hard to love a person wholeheartedly as if it is going to be a forever.

Sigh......All my believes that i once thought that i will stick to seem have proven wrong. I have realised that the person who use to judge others' situation n thought that he/she would never make such a mistake might commit the same mistake like others. Haiz.

I m beginning to have a lot of doubts. Hope i have an ans soon. I shant drag for too long. I do not want things to reach a stage beyond salvage that someone will be hurt badly. Or at least that i need to get myself stabilise. Hope that i will not commit any mistake.