MemoryLane Forgotten

Yesterday was a BAD day. Today is a BAD day too. It seem every this period of the month will not be my days.

A lot of things happen yesterday. Work was not that smooth.

Furthermore after work, if i was not mistaken, i finally bumped into the person whom i had not seem for 5 years and i had imagined how it would be like to ever meet him. A person was walking pass me at a very fast pace and busy talking on the phone. He looked and sound familiar. I turned and took another glance of him as the distance between us get wider. It was really unbelievable.

Nearing the end of my day, a person whom i would never want to receive any more phone call or messages called me again. It was 9.30pm and i was still having class when i felt vibration of my phone. The phone displayed the name of the person calling. What the Hell. Had i not make it very clear to him that i did not want to have anything more to do with him ever again. Is he really so insensitive or slow to realise all that? I noted his suggestion. Yet i could not help to think if he really mean it the way he made it sound or did he have a motive that his purpose n aim was only for that one thing. "Never judge a book by its cover". This phrase suit him totally. For numerous time, i was very offended by his rudeness towards me. He overdid some thing that he knew he should never intrude. I always remember the day when he said that i was just trying to sympathise him and probably that i was rolling my eyes and thinking how a idiotic fool he was. Fine. That is how he judge me. Wow. Thanks a lot man. All the things that he had done and his judgement of me made it clear that i was just a tool and he did not regard me as a friend at all. I knew it all along and i only accepted the reality when it is provened.

Today, another person totally 'make' my day in the morn. I m terribly sorry for that i have been telling u that i m alright yesterday when i m not and that i only tell u at the end of the day. I know that i m at fault and that do give u a right to be angry. However u should have at least try to make the person feel better first b4 u even go about telling that u r piss by it. U even asked me what do i treat u as. U even say that i m pushing u away. U even asked me why do i everytime keep things to myself. Rarrrrr!!! How i know?! That is me. I m who i m. I thought u know and that u understand me. Btw, it is not everytime also lo. Seriously. Sometime i find it hard to talk to u. I always feel that there are not all things i can tell u. I can be very frank at time only when i think it is ok. I m afraid that u will be affected. I m afraid that u will over-react. I m afraid that i would not get the sort of reply i wanted and i would be disappointed or be pissed like now. M i being unreasonable here? NO...

I m really v TIRED now... As if i have no enough burdens...more burdens are added on to me...